Thursday, January 22, 2015

the goddess

the iban, the indigenous people of malaysian borneo, are a colorfully decorated people.  they wear markings of tattoos on their bodies in the belief that a person with no tattoos would not be recognized by the gods.  i can't disagree.  what are we when we leave this world but an empty shell, a shadow of a vessel ready to take a journey into the unknown.. or become one with the dirt below our feet.  more on this later, i'm not in borneo yet.  yet yet yet yet yet..  patience, spring will come soon and i'll be reporting back from the jungle.

men and women are different types of the same human animal.  somehow in our recent history we have asserted male dominance to the world then reverted a few aspects of it.  we color our words and call each other equal but the average man knowns nothing about the complex body and mind of a woman.  we have done this through over complication of ourselves and our cultures.  we have wandered so far away from the village and the tribe and we forget why we have such primal instincts towards our opposite, or sometimes same, sex.  ps it's 2015, if you're still homophobic at all, fuck you.

where was i?  i don't want to lose this thought.

i look towards ourselves as naked, painted animals.  in fact, i'll go ahead and share that i often people watch and imagine people naked.  it makes me more comfortable and reminds me that only a few thousand years ago we were naked.  religion has taught us to be ashamed of our bodies.  this is true in the sense of the missionaries who have invaded indigenous places and shamed people for nudity and polygamy.  the tattoo had almost vanished.  even today people still feel the stigma left behind from religion and call the tattoo 'indecent'.  not this cat.  you cover your body with clothes, i'll cover mine with beauty.

i'm not bigger than the cliche.  i'll tell about how technology, society, religion, money, relationships falan filan (etc. etc. in turkish) have overburdened our lives.  we are a victim of capitalism and over consumption and after all this time we have wandered so far from our ancestral roots.  in fact we have only been like this for a short time if you consider that the agricultural revolution was only a few thousand years ago and we have been in this form we are now for much, much longer.  we wandered the world and wondered what lie beyond the other side of the hills.  we kept small communities of people close to us and lived off the land.  we lived in harmony with nature and knew no words such as dollar or tuesday or job.  job?  what the fuck is a job?  you need a job to make money.  what the fuck is money?  you need it to buy food.  food?  there is food all around you.  it's all there and those who believe in god should believe this the most.  god created this world and it is ours to protect and preserve yet we destroy it.  we pollute it and make up rules and beliefs for us to hate each other.  celebrate this earth man!  peace love!  whoa i'm a hippy!  grow out your hair and walk around your house naked.. quit your job and plant a farm.  climb a tree.  eat more vegetables.  have a threesome.  make bracelets.  burn your bra.  yeah.. so.. that's not all me i'm just on a rant, i'm not any good at making bracelets :)

long ago they called us pagans.  those who believed in the forces of nature and looked more to our maternal instincts.  they told us that god is a man and women were to be tamed.  read your bible, exodus specifically.. come on.. i want to go back to the old ways.  i want to take from the land only that which i need for this life.  i'm sick of being shamed for feeling what i think is natural.

picture this.  we are genetically no different than the hunter-gatherers who came before us.  we just have cell phones and we can watch cat videos on youtube when we take a shit.  we got to this point through thousands of years of slavery and undeserved excess.  it is actually in our genetic make up to walk this earth as did our ancestors long ago yet we were born in a time when this is seemingly impossible..  and you wonder why i wander off into the village every year to deep faraway corners of the earth where people still live as they did long ago.  i'll be back soon.  i'll be shirtless and shoeless among other people with painted bodies giving thanks to the bones of their ancestors.  i'll be picking happiness off sounds of nature all around me and one day too i shall return home with wider eyes and more knowledge about the truth about the human condition.

kiss a stranger today, i dare you.  

1 comment:

  1. Its 3am and i really needed to read something like this. oh man the coincidences with your blog and I just dont end.
    Climb a tree? burn your bra? Where do you come up with this stuff haha? Your words are worth smiles. and thats the best way to earn happiness.
    am i making any sense?
    its 3am who gives a fu*k about making sense.
    you need to be published. your words need to be out there. not for randomness of the nocturnal internet visitors to find but for everyone.